Love Lost

My heart hasn't been the same
Since the day we met
My mind hasn't been sane
Since the night you left

The Black Man's Blonde

Thirty inches of middle parted Peruvian weaves so we can have long silky hair

Cancerous bleaching creams so our skin can be fair
Trying to fit into a white-washed perception of beauty
In hope that we will be the center of desirability through the black man's stare

'Manhood'

There are many moments when I just want my man to let down his guard

Stop proving to the world that he is macho and hard

While he stands strong and tall, behind an emotionless wall

Playing a role from a masculinity script

Where fear, pain and vulnerability is fully stripped

There are days I long to strip you away from your social construct of 'manhood'

Your so called innate, but arguably learnt characteristics of what a man should, be

And for a few minutes please just be human with me

For why must our souls only connect through sex?

Why not bare our souls in heart led dialect, or in the beauty of stillness and silence

Letting the pure bliss of just being in each other's presence go beyond our five senses,

And left unexplained by science.

I long for more moments when we don't play our parts or gender roles

And just be halves making each other whole

Via channels other than physical intimacy 

With me opened wide letting you inside; let's not shun intimacy in its other forms too

Every now and then you should learn to open up, so we can become one with me inside of you.

© Copyright 2013

Doubters

I am not a reflection of you
Whatever you think you aren't cut out to do, is your issue
Don't make it mine too.

Sinking Ship

Though this relationship continues to sail
I feel as though its about to crash & fail
I can't even recall the last time you rocked the boat
You no longer make an effort to keep our love afloat

We're hitting a rocky shore

And its clear to see you don't want this love anymore

My heart is gradually sinking
Our romance has taken a dramatic dip
So I'm sitting here drinking
Drowning my loneliness with every sip

And now you've got me thinking

Maybe its time to abandon ship?


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Powerless

Pow-er-less

That feeling when someone you love
Loses someone they love,
And there is nothing you can do or say
To take their heartache away.

Sad People

Crying about the same shit everyday
Doesn't make the pain go away.

Insanity

'Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.'

- Albert Einstein

I know insane people.

Englishman in New York

I do love this song.

Newspapers

Nine to five commutes are swamped with free newspapers, but I prefer to be uninformed than misinformed.

Chemically 'Corrected'

Farewell to my chemically ‘corrected’ hair

My peer respected and socially accepted hair

Natively neglected and African rejected hair

No more harsh chemicals and over heated pressers

Spending every 4-6 weeks at the hairdressers

Imitating the hair of my ancestral oppressors

Using products that are far from kind

So my coarse undefined tresses can become fine and gain pretentious silk & shine

My thick strands of curls & coils

Regularly bathed in natural oils and treated like royals

My glorious crown of kinks
I'm leaving it to flourish in its natural state regardless of what anyone else thinks
Not easily swayed by the wind, my hair is now wild with no reason to be tamed

I'm so in love and no longer ashamed of my God given precious mane.

                                                                                                                 - eileen carmel

© Copyright 2012

You don't look African...

He: 'So what country do you come from?'

Me: 'I come from Ghana'

He: 'Oh you're African, you don't look African.'

Me: 'Oh my bad, I left my spear and tribal marks at home today.'

My Hairspiration

It's been almost a year of growing out my permed hair - yay! My mum is still begging me to get a perm though but I've been firm in my decision to be 100% natural and I'm doing well guys. Esperanza Spalding has been my 'hairspiration' throughout my hair journey; it's so refreshing to see someone in the spotlight with hair that looks...just like mine! I love her hair and I've finally learnt to love mine (:

Nicholas Brothers

This is what you call talent!

Ain't I A Woman?